Sunday, March 28, 2010

Stepping out of the closet and 'back from that ledge'

Earlier today I heard the song Jumper by Third Eye Blind and it brought me back to when I first moved to Boston from Atlanta. At the time, I was still closeted and trying to come to terms with my sexuality. Having the benefit of hindsight, I can see now that I was sort of a ticking time bomb. No wonder I always related to the chorus of the song. 

Wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand, I would understand
How strange is it that lyrics written by another and meant for someone else can become so intensely personal? I can remember feeling like the chorus was an existential conversation I was having with myself. When I heard the song today, many memories (both happy and sad) flooded back, and I thought I'd write about it before the feeling of de ja vu faded.   

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Anonymous said...

So glad you stepped back from that ledge!

Anonymous said...

I am glad you let yourself be honest and accepting of yourself. it never made a difference to us. we love you but boy, back then, you were driving me mad!

Anonymous said...

brings tears to my eyes to see a completed story like this. the beginning, the drama of course, but also the beautiful end... then people supporting, who are probably family... will my story always be stuck in the middle, in the abyss, i don't know. but i send you guys my love. i think i'm gonna cry a little.